‘This Thing Called Love’ – written by Debbie Howells #BookReview @debbie__howells @rararesources @BoldwoodBooks

What we do for love, and what love lets us do

Synopsis

A truly heartbreaking but ultimately uplifting story about family, friendship, love and serendipity.

When Bee loses her job, home and boyfriend – all on the same day that a man accidentally spills coffee all over her; she decides life can’t get any worse. So when her mother finally tells Bee the name of the father she’s never met – a musician named Luke Friday – she decides to take a risk and go in search of him.

Meanwhile, Alex – who accidentally bumped into a pretty girl earlier that day, spilling his coffee all over her – returns home, where his mother is increasingly dependent on him. He wants to help her find some of her memories again. But the only person he thinks can help is a stranger to him. A man called Luke Friday, who his mother once played music with.

As Alex and Bee start their search for the same man, Luke’s nine-year-old daughter is also looking for something – anything – that might help her father with his grief. Little does she know her prayers might just be about to be answered… as a little thing called love starts to bring their lives together in ways none of them could possibly have imagined.

My review

After losing her mother, Mack, a 9 – years – old girl living in Majorca, writes to the Universe, with a wish for her father to find happiness again. Little does she that in the UK, after a terrible day, Bee discovers who her father is, after years of not knowing his identity. And as Bee has no job, no home or no boyfriend to take in account, she decides to head off to Majorca, to find out who this Luke Friday is. At the same time, Alex is looking after his mother, diagnosed with early dementia. While at times for sure it is a struggle, he wouldn’t want to do anything differently. Alex is certain that his mother will find some of her memories back through music, and slowly concocts a plan to bring her former band back together. And trying to not only find all the members, but also convince them all, takes him to Majorca, in the hope that he convince Luke Friday to get along with him and Kevin, who already agreed. Could truly one request from a little girl to the Universe bring all these people together and would the Universe truly give not only little Mack, but everyone, perhaps not what they want, but what they truly need?

After reading the blurb of this story, I was expecting a wonderful romance story, with even perhaps a possibility to a love triangle? Because let’s be honest, we don’t get a lot of clues from the blurb. But on the other hand, I should have known that this amazing author would write a story that goes beyond romance, yet with love firmly at the centre stage.

Once into the story, I didn’t know what I should be feeling. Of course I felt sorry for Luke, Mack, Bee and Alex, but despite everything each of them has been going through, it didn’t feel right to pity them. No matter each difficulty, everyone is trying to make the best out of their situation. Easier said than done of course, and there is a lot of room for trial and error.

Bee for sure isn’t having an easy time, not only does she lose her boyfriend, job and even home in almost the same day. But the fact that her own mother isn’t all that eager to have her back home truly angered me. I could understand perhaps that she didn’t want Bee to be back home permanently, but helping Bee out of a shorter period, what is the problem with that? I imagined that Bee must feel so rejected by everyone, just at loss, and alone. So of course it is logical to head off to Majorca, to meet a man she didn’t know existed.

And while in one way it seems a bit rushed and not so sensible at all, going to a strange country, to meet a complete stranger without having an actual plan, it also felt like it is what Bee needs at this stage in her life.

Enter Luke and Mack in her life. To say that they are in a happy place (figuratively speaking) would be a euphemism… as they are anything but happy. And can you blame them, with the loss they had to endure not so long ago? My heart truly broke for this pair, as they both are still clearly trying to cope with their loss.

Yet at the same time, I was so proud of Mack. Despite her young age, it felt like she has an old soul. For sure she is even more mature than any other girls of her age, and I believe that is has nothing to do with the tragedy that struck them, but it is just who Mack is…

We see a lot of ups and downs, with both Luke and Mack, but that is so understandable. Grief gives you some good day, but also bad days. And in a way, I was glad that Bee is there for the bad days too, even if she is out of her depth, and she doesn’t know what the right thing to do is. Yet it is clear that her just being there, is already more than enough.

But what warmed my heart the most, was reading how Mack and Bee connect. There is a world of differences between them, the huge age gap just one of them. But Mack’s easy acceptance of Bee and Bee’s words and actions of support are the medicine that the both of them need.

And then there is Alex… He is the perfect example of being a great son. His mother has been diagnosed with early dementia, which already is a difficult prognosis. Yet Alex is determined to look after his mother for as long is possible. There are several examples in this book showing that it isn’t easy looking after someone with dementia, as there are plenty of incidents taking place. And I truly admired Alex for not giving up, keeping up high hopes, never losing his patience.

Now, I know that it may seem that this is a very depressing story. But it truly isn’t. Yes, there are sadder bits in it, but that isn’t the general tone of the story.

Because there is Bee, that finds not only a father, but also a sister, while trying to figure out where her place in the world is. Yet with the wisdom of a lovely little girl, Bee starts to see things differently. And then there is Alex, that out of love for his mother wants to accomplish something impossible.

Perhaps in a farfetched way, we see how music enriches people’s lives. Because for Rachel/Roxy (Alex’s mother), it brings back a light in her eyes and memories, but it also brings the old band mates back together. And it brings Bee and Alex in each other’s lives, after a random first meeting at the start of the book.

This story for sure was a heart – warming, lovely, love story. Love in the not always romantical way, but love for our children, love for our parents, love for old friends, love for new friends, love for music, love just for everything.

Beside all the heartbreak there is in this book, and in life generally, we also see so many rays of lights, rays of love, rays of hope. I devoured this bittersweet, wonderful book and Debbie Howells once again touched my heart in a way that will not be easily forgotten…

‘Murder At The Ponte Vecchio’  written by T.A. Williams #BookReview @TAWilliamsBooks @rararesources @BoldwoodBooks

Murder with an extra ‘shine’…

Synopsis

An iconic bridge… 🌉

Private investigator, Dan Armstrong, lives and works in Florence and knows the world famous Ponte Vecchio well. Usually a magnet for tourists, on this occasion it is the scene of an unexplained death, and Dan finds himself involved in the intriguing case.

An uncompromising man… 😠

Dan quickly discovers that the victim, an elderly jeweller, was every bit as hard as the diamonds he sold in his shop on the bridge. Few people liked him, not even his adult children, and his business dealings look murkier than the waters of the River Arno. Dan suspects more secrets lie hidden…perhaps inside the massive safe in the old man’s luxury villa…

A complex case. 💎🔍

As the evidence begins to mount up, so too do the suspects with their different motives. With a fortune in gold bullion and precious stones involved, Dan thinks the only way to catch the killer is to lay a trap, but might he be caught in the killer’s sights? Fortunately, he has Oscar, his canine wingman at his side, always eager to prove that he’s as good as gold. 🐶

Can Dan and Oscar sniff out the killer’s tracks or will this case be a bridge too far?

My review

Dan Armstrong truly left his former life behind and started fresh in Florence. In fact, life couldn’t get any better, as he truly loves his partner Anna, his most loyal and furry friend Oscar always by his side, and even if his new job as private investigator takes a lot of time, he manages to write rather successful books. But somehow, when there is a rather strange death that has taken place at the famous Ponte Vecchio, Dan gets involved again. And not just because the dead man has not committed suicide like it would appear on first sight, but has been murdered, but because that same man asked for Dan’s help. And now, not only Dan finds himself helping the police forces again to find out the truth, but he also discovers that the victim was known in the world of diamonds, and thus a lot of money is involved. Throughout his investigations, Dan is trying to unravel the truth, while at the same time more deaths are taking place and even his closest friends are carrying a burden that may be part of a for now unknown greater picture…

Here we are again, writing down our thoughts about the newest instalment of a series that we absolutely love. And I am talking in plural, because I believe that many readers are sharing my opinion 😊

I have read every book of this series, from the very start with Dan falling in love with Florence to and slowly finding a new place to call home. Because let there be no doubts about the, with each book, Dan is finding more at home in Florence, with a great dog in Oscar, many loyal friends and has even found love again in the process.

However, I am truly getting a bit worried about the people living or just visiting Florence, as once again, in this book, there are some body counts taking place! And not only that, but at one point, I even got worried about a beloved character in the series too!

I don’t know how Dan always finds himself involved in cases that are never straightforward. Why can a murder not be easy to solve? How come that Dan finds himself somehow working once again with the Italian forces to discover what happens? And how come that it is even very risky for Dan’s life to be investigating?

This time, Dan is being hired by the victim (or rather, victims), and that brings him in the world of jewellery, and diamonds to be more specific. I was even more intrigued as usual, as there is a minor link with Antwerp, a city not even 100 kilometres from my home.

Now, of course this is a cozy mystery, and beside the heavy, difficult investigation, there is aplenty of room for lightness, and even to show the strength of friendship. And obviously, there is always a special spotlight for Oscar, showing everyone that he is more than ‘just’ a dog! If there would be a time that Dan cannot have Oscar anymore, can I please adopt him? I promise I will love him more than I already do now! 😊

I have to say though, that Anna is for sure proving to be Dan’s perfect match. The patience and understanding of that woman! I don’t know if many women would put up with Dan’s profession and his spurs of the moments!

Of course it was a delight to return to Florence again, seeing my good old friends again, even if I knew that once again murder(s) would be taken place. And I have to admit, this book was perhaps more intricated, as there initially are several things taking place, without a common thread between them. But the more I was reading, the more the bigger picture became clear to me.

T A Williams made me truly feel like being physically back in Florence, he managed perfectly to make his readers understand the Italian way of life, but also making his readers think in one direction, only to make them realize later on that their (or rather, mine) thoughts were just wrong.

I absolutely enjoyed this latest instalment of the series, showing even more layers of Dan throughout his investigations. But we also saw once again the loyalty of Oscar. Could there possibly be a time where I do get bored and tired of this series? Honestly, I don’t think so! 😊  

‘One More Day Of Us’ written by Shari Low #BooReview @ShariLow @rararesources @BoldwoodBooks

When a reunion makes you reminisce but also doesn’t go as expected.

Synopsis

Would you give up your dreams for love?

1990: In a hot, humid Hong Kong summer, three young singers are loving life, performing to packed crowds every night in a swanky hotel bar. Twenty-three-year-old Scottish songbird, Moira Chiles is living the dream alongside Carina Lloyd and Lisa Dixon. They work hard, play hard, and always stick together… until one day Moira has to make a choice that changes everything.

Fast forward to…

2025: In a wet, chilly, Glasgow summer, Moira has just retired after singing in Glasgow pubs and Caribbean cruise ships for three decades. Now she’s ready for a new adventure – one that takes her to Hong Kong to revisit a world she left behind. Moira hasn’t seen Carina or Lisa for over thirty years, but will an invitation to join her on a holiday of a lifetime rekindle the friendships that changed her life? Or will stepping back in time expose secrets that could break their hearts?

My review

Thirty years ago, Moira, Lisa and Carina met in a hotel in Hong Kong, working in a hotel bar, having the time of their lives. They were ready to chase their dreams, and they were certain that their friendship would last forever.

In 2025, Moira has just retired from singing  in pubs and on cruises, and she is ready to relive (at least partly) the memories she has of Hong Kong. So with inviting Carina and Lisa to join her on a holiday, she hopes to rekindle that lost friendship. But are the women truly ready to go through memory lane? Or are there even thirty years later, secrets being kept that will only cause heartbreak?

Shari Low is one of those authors that keep on surprising me with their writing skills. And why am I even surprised, as I have several of her books, and I know about her amazing talents.

Yes, perhaps the set  up of many of her stories is the same, multiple main characters, flashbacks to a past with the start of just everything. But let me tell you, those are truly the only similarities, because each story is truly unique and captivating. Oh, and isn’t it lovely how Shari Low manages to let us see some old friends of ours once again?

When we are meeting Moira, Carina and Stevie (yes, I’m leaving Lisa out of the equation for now, but if you read the book, you’ll know why), I was wondering how they would all be connected. They are living their own separate lives, and Moira and Carina don’t even know about Stevie’s existence. Their lives couldn’t be more different from each other, and they are all in a different phase of their lives too.

I could easily write here what each character is like, and what their own storyline is about. But while on itself, it would be a great story too, it’s the fusion of those three stories that turned this book in an amazing reading time.

It is not a surprise that *a lot* happens in a timespan of thirty years, yet I was a bit surprised just how much the main characters have changed in those years. Of course life takes a direction, and you adapt to that direction. But it was even astonishing to read how much someone can change, or has to change.

And we see that with Carina, how she has changed from that free, lively and in a way even wild young woman to the woman she has become after her marriage.

Her life is now at a crossroad, after a devastating discovery. And with Carina we also see that you can lose yourself during life. But also that you can always find yourself again, even if it takes a holiday to Hong Kong to find yourself again 😊.

But the biggest ‘personality’ change we see with Lisa. Thirty years ago, she was the wildest of the friends, having no regrets at all. Yet we read that the Lisa Moira and Carina knew, is the complete opposite to the Lisa that Stevie knows.

Yes, this story started as Moira wanted to be with her friends again, but it quickly turned into a story of discovery. Discovery of who you once were, what changed you, but also what used to make you happy. Also it was a journey of discovering how events can change you, and even can completely change you.

And yes, I have to admit, the dramaqueen in me perhaps expected even more secrets, more devastating ones. However, maybe the secrets in my mind would have bit a little bit too much ☺️.

But it was also a wonderful story about discovering about the people close to you, and seeing a complete different side of them. There are secrets being revealed between the friends, that makes every decision that was made clearer, and even rise regrets about not doing their utterly best to keep in touch.

And most important of all, this was a marvellous story about friendship, the strength of the real kind of it. That even time, events and no contact, will never break the strongest of bonds. And that how one meeting over thirty years ago, can write out a whole new path not only for those back then, but also the people linked to them, thirty years later on, somehow.

Shari Low had the impossible task to fulfil my extreme high expectations. Not only did she once again reach them with ease, but even succeeded them by lengths. But let her be warned now, as the bar will only be even higher now! 😊

‘Shadows In The Spring’ written by Christina Courtenay #BookReview @PiaCCourtenay @rararesources

Are soulmates stronger than time?

Synopsis

Two souls bound together but lost in time. Until now.

AD 80 

Duro of the Iceni tribe escaped life as an enslaved gladiator and is now finally home in Britannia with one thing on his mind: vengeance. For 20 years he has sought the Roman legionary who destroyed his family. What he didn’t expect was Gisel: a fierce Germanic woman with long white-blonde hair, forced into slavery by the Romans. Hypnotised by her spirit and her beauty, Duro frees Gisel and slowly tries to win her trust as they work together to complete his quest.

Present Day

Mackenna Jackson returns to Bath with a broken heart, thanks to rockstar Blue Daniels. Luckily she can still count on Blue’s former bandmate Jonah Miller as a listening ear. But Jonah has secretly been fighting stronger feelings, drawn to Mac’s quiet confidence and gorgeous white-blonde hair. As they explore the area, memories they can’t quite explain flood them both.

Is the spark between Mac and Jonah in fact a sign of something much deeper – a love enduring through millennia – or can it all be an illusion?

My review

The time is AD 80, where Duro of the Iceni tribe finally can taste freedom again, after not only having fighting as a gladiator, but also escape the fire that killed many. Now that he is back in Britannia, he only has one mission: avenge the Roman legionary that destroyed his family many years ago. But his thirst for vengeance doesn’t take away his righteous sense. Not only does he not have the intention to take away the position of chief man of his brother, but rather wants to share is, but he also helps out a recently enslaved woman, Gisel. And the more he gets to know her, the more he hopes that she will start to feel the same as he does about her…

In present times, Mackenna sees her relationship with rockstar Blue Daniels ending after catching him in flagrant with two other women. While the paparazzi are not letting her go, ready to find any kind of gossip, she can count on the help and support of Blue’s former bandmate, Jonah, who is nothing like her ex. Slowly, Mac starts to wonder if she was perhaps too blinded by Blue, and didn’t see who would do anything for her. But while Jonah is being truly a good friend, how can she ever explain him the visions she is suddenly having, about her and Jonah but in a complete different era? And what does it mean?

Having read several books of this author, I always know that I will be captivated by the stories and will be in for a treat, even if not always the outcome is that predictable.

As I already knew, we would be having two stories for the price of one. And as I already knew, after reaching the finish, I could not possibly say which one of the two was my favourite. They are both so different from each other, and I am not only taking about them taking place in different eras, but also just generally speaking, Duro and Gisel are going through things completely different than Mac and Jonah are going through.

Of course, with the stories taking place in different eras, I also had to switch between mindset. What is normal now, wasn’t in AD 80, and obviously the other way around. So while some actions taking place in AD 80 would not be accepted now, then it was normal.

What I liked about Duro and Gisel, and not just their entwined story, but for their characters, is that they are just normal people. Well, meaning that they are not part of the ‘rich and famous’, but are a gladiator and a slave. Yes yes, I know that isn’t normal, but they are not people that have been born or gained richness and power, but they just seek for their freedom and vengeance.

Duro wasn’t a complete stranger, but it was just great to get to know this great amazing warrior better. Of course when I think about gladiators, I think about the films with the same name. But obviously being a gladiator is truly  of life and death.

Seeing him now as a free man, even not perhaps in the most  legal ways, was just great. Because I think that everyone should be a free person. And with his background, it was very understandable that he was seeking for vengeance. I cannot even try to imagine what it is like to be not only being captured, but seeing how one man and his ‘crew’ ruin your whole family…

With everything that Duro has been through, you would think that he would be a bitter, angry man. But while yes, he has these feelings, they are only directed towards one man. And when Duro isn’t fighting for vengeance, he is truly a great guy. He is caring, protective, and a man that knows what is right and what is wrong.

The way he suddenly wants to protect Gisel, a complete stranger, warmed my heart. It would have been so easy for him to just walk away when seeing this slave, but he just doesn’t.

Gisel is of course also a force of nature, not someone to mess with. She is being enslaved by a man who wants to use her as he pleases. Yet she is the kind of woman that is not afraid for fight for her freedom, she has a smart and clear mind of her own. And while she is grateful for Duro’s help, she is still wary of him. And I liked that, because she isn’t swooning over her rescuer.

What I liked about this pair, is their complicity. They don’t know each other, yet there is not only this pull between them, but they will have each other’s back no matter what. Gisel understands Duro’s wish for revenge, and as she knows how it feels, she will support him on his quest.

And seeing slowly seeing that complicity grow into more and deeper, was just great.

Of course this is a book with two stories, and I was also very eager to read Mac’s story too.

There are many prejudices towards rockstars, as they live in a world of sex, drugs and rock ‘n roll. And I was a bit disappointed to see how Blue, Mac’s boyfriend, confirmed all the clichés. But of course, with every cliché there is someone to dismiss the clichés.

And Jonah couldn’t be more perfect for the task!

He is not only truly a nice guy, but he truly cares about Mac, he listens to her, wants to help her anywhere and anyhow he can. He is being 100% Jonah, without expecting anything in return. He does everything out of the kindness in his heart, and is putting his own feelings for Mac away, because he knows that Mac isn’t in the right mindset yet for letting love back in her heart.

And Mac deserves someone like Jonah, especially after Blue… I couldn’t understand how such a genuine and real woman like Mac could have endured being with someone like Blue.

Going through a heartbreak is already difficult enough, but then being also prosecuted by the paparazzi… If you are a famous person yourself, it can be already difficult, but for normal people it must be a real nightmare!

There are reasons that make Mac and Jonah spend time together, and while they are slowly building a friendship, it’s obvious that them together is just right. And seeing an attraction grow, but also being afraid to come out too strong or too fast or not being sure that it’s reciprocated, just added extra lovely layers to this story.

Of course there has to be link between both couples. And while I perhaps am not such a believer of lovers, soulmates, finding each other over and over again, it was just fitting for this story and this author.

And yes, with Doru and Gisel going through highs and lows, I was a bit afraid of them being star – crossed lovers, only having a second chance again with them being Mac and Jonah. But even if I was a bit afraid, I found it impossible to stop reading.

Christina Courtenay wrote once again a captivating story, about hurt people, in different ways. But it is also a story about how people can find someone in perhaps unexpected ways. And it is mainly a story about how strong love can be, and that soulmates will always find a way back to each other…

‘Shooting Stars Over The Highlands’ – written by Lisa Hobman #BookReview @LisaJHobmanAuth @rararesources @BoldwoodBooks

Sometimes, dreams come true in just another shape as expected, right?

Synopsis

What would you wish for if you had one chance?

Esme Cassidy had two dreams growing up: to be a famous film star, and to own Drumblair Castle.

Sadly, overly cautious parents put paid to a career in front of the camera, instead encouraging her to study towards a ‘proper job’, and Lady Olivia MacBain is the current custodian of ‘her castle’.

After graduating and a year travelling, Esme returns home broken-hearted and throws herself into her new role as Lady Olivia’s PA at Drumblair Castle. It’s not quite her original dream but at least she’s living at the castle in one of the estate cottages with her housemate and friend, handsome, yet quirky, groundsman Judd.

With the news that the castle will be used as a film set for a period movie, Esme gets to witness first-hand the career she missed out on. And with her teenage crush in the starring role, she can’t believe her luck. But he wouldn’t be interested in a girl like her, surely?

My review

Esme Cassidy had two big dreams while growing up: to become a film star, and to live in Drumblair Castle. However, her parents that love her deeply, wanted her to instead of following her dream, to study for a ‘proper job’. And also her dream of being the owner of Drumblair Castle is something she will never achieve, as Lady Olivia is the righteous owner. After a sabbatical year, ending in heartbreak for Esme, she is now ready to start fresh. And Esme never expected to be having the next best thing to be the owner of Drumblair Castel, as she now is the PA of Lady Olivia. And when she has the chance to live in one of the estate cottages, it feels like truly her dream coming true. But her dreams may be even closer than expected, because the castle will be used as a film set for a period movie. And Esme cannot believe her ears when she learns that her teenage crush is in a leading role! Now not only is she seeing how her life would look like if her dream came true, but she also finds herself befriending the star of the show. Yet she knows that someone like him would never fall for a girl like her, right? And what about the growing friendship she has with her roommate?

Drumblair Castle has been the wonderful setting of some marvellous stories. And yes, the place truly stole my heart, just like each couple finding each other at the Castle. So was I ready to dive into another great story? Absolutely!

Esme is the kind of woman that I could easily relate to in so many different aspects. Haven’t we all dreamed about living in a castle?  And haven’t we all dreamed once to become a famous person? Of course, with growing up, becoming adults, we all put those ‘silly’ dreams away.

Also the fact that her parents are absolutely lovely, but also a bit overprotective, also sounded very familiar. I saw a lot of my own relationship with my parents in the relationship Esme has with her parents. The love between all three is very palpable, but there is always a moment where you need to spread your own wings and make it on your own (okay, a bit melodramatic from my side, but you understand me 😊).

Esme is also an adventurous kind of woman, something that isn’t me at all, as she took a year to discover the world on her own. And that made me feel in awe of her, just packing and leaving, not knowing who you will meet, what adventures are waiting for you.

Unfortunately, in Esme’s case that also means getting her heart broken in a terrible way. Of course we all knew that the story would start with a heartbroken Esme, but it still hurt to see how Esme gets her heart crushed while even when the time has arrived to say a temporarily goodbye, she had all the hopes to make it work.

Now, if her initial love story would end well, we wouldn’t have the delight to read this story, wouldn’t we? Her heartbreak also allows us to see her growth and resolution to find her own happiness again.

And that determination and resolution to make it, made me truly like Esme even more than I already did at the start of the book. Also the fact that Esme is an open, caring, non – judgemental person, made me like her. And let’s not forget that she also wants to do the right thing, even if it would be her paying the price for it.

Once again I was amazed by all the people living and working around Drumblair Castle. Although I shouldn’t be surprised, should I? People come in different forms and shapes, and not everyone is the same. Not everyone has the same passions, not everyone expresses themselves in the same way. But different isn’t bad at all, in my opinion it makes life more exciting too! And it was clear that Esme feels the same way. And we see this especially the way she is with her new housemate, Judd.

While they have known each other from working both at the Castle, they never had much opportunity to get to know each other better, but now with living together, they see that yes, they are different from each other, but that in many ways they are also the same, and that they understand each other, on every level.

Esme is truly feeling at home living with Judd nearby the Castle, and of course there is the fact that Esme is getting glimpses of a world that once was her dream.

And we all know that the lives of the famous isn’t only glitter and glamour, but that they are just normal people, just like you and me. We see this especially with Zach, that he isn’t the kind of person that believes he is better than a non – famous person.

It was sweet to see the interaction between Zach and Esme. There is a genuine bond between the pair of them, and I liked it how Zach sees Esme’s potential and genuinely tries to tempt her to finally pursue her old dream.

Now, I have to admit, I was definitely rooting for one contender. Not because there was one goodie and one baddie. Both contenders were amazing in their own ways, but there was just one of them that made my heart skip a beat, or beat a little bit faster 😊.

I absolutely devoured this book, as it brought me back to a wonderful place, with amazing characters. And I had the honour to get to know new, marvellous people. But in a way, the Castle worked its magic once again, as we see that perhaps childhood dreams do not always come true, but maybe they come in our adulthood in a form that we didn’t expect. But it also shows us that in order to make those dreams come true, we need to mature, to grow in order to let those dreams happen.

Lisa Hobman wrote a funny, inspiring, heart – warming story about standing on your own two feet, finding your own happiness and finding your own crew. And this for sure is a story about never stop dreaming!  

‘A Greek Island Gift’ – written by Mandy Baggot #BookReview @MandyBaggot @rararesources @BoldwoodBooks

An inheritance that will uncover many secrets…

Synopsis

An unexpected gift… A home in paradise?

When Molly Adams finds out she’s inherited an apartment in Kassiopi, Corfu, she’s left thinking there must be some mistake. She doesn’t know anyone in Greece at all.

But when she arrives there’s a shock. Molly hasn’t inherited a whole apartment, it’s only 50%. But there’s more – she’s also inherited 50% of a boat, 50% of an olive tree and… 25% of a cat.

Christos Baros is coming home to Corfu for the summer. A self-made entrepreneur, owning three gyms in Athens, he has no need for half an apartment, half a boat, half an olive tree or a quarter of a cat, but he knows these things are important to his mother.

Molly and Christos’s worlds collide in a whirlwind and the irresistible charm of the Greek island draws them even closer together. But as they uncover the secrets of their shared inheritance, will they discover that sometimes, sharing what you never wanted can lead to exactly what you need?

This summer, join Molly and Christos in Corfu as they try to work out if one shared Greek gift will turn into a shared future. Perfect for fans of Sue Moorcroft and Jenny Colgan.

My review

Molly Adams cannot believe her ears (or rather eyes), when she receives a letter from Greece, informing her that she has inherited from a man she never heard of. However, when she informs her mother, the name of the man opens a box full of memories for her mother, as she has spend time on the island of Corfu, and she knows Vaggelis Vlachos very well. But Molly still doesn’t understand why it was her that inherited. So together with her mother and her best friend Siobhan, Molly heads off to Kassiopi, Corfu, to hear what she has inherited, but also, and perhaps mainly, to understand why of all people, Vaggelis put her in his will, with perhaps the strangest possible arrangements…

I love reading stories where the main character inherits unexpectedly, needs to head off to another country, to discover exactly what was written in a will of a person the main character doesn’t know at the start of the book.

But in Molly’s story, contrary to most stories, the link between her and the deceased it even more mysterious. Because she has never heard of the man, and has never been to Corfu. So why would a complete stranger put her name in his will? So many questions, so many pages to read to discover it all.

Of course there has to be a link somewhere between Molly and Vaggelis, as this is not a case of scam mails, where you supposedly inherit something from a Nigerian Prince or I don’t know what 😊.

There were several moments that I was a bit surprised. For example, I was expecting that Molly would embark to Corfu on her own. But on the other hand, of course she would take her mother and her best friend along, for the moral support. And having her mother with her, makes it also possible for Molly to finally find some answers to questions she always had, like the identity of her father.

Another surprise was discovering what she has inherited. Truly, who inherits 25% of a cat, 50% of an olive tree, 50% of a boat and 50% of an apartment? Most of the things are easily  to be divided, but a cat??? How do you divide that???

And then there is Vaggelis’s family and friends, that for sure are as surprised as Mollyis, but are also special in their own ways. I could understand with this kind of family, that Christos Baros somehow fled to Athens.

Not that his family is a bad one, but they are typical Mediterranean: loud, present, welcoming, loving, but also a bit overprotective and even masters at holding grudges. And no matter how much you love your family, sometimes too much is just that, too much.

In this story, both Molly and Christos are not people that have been sailing through life easily. Not only have they somehow both been missing something/someone in their upbringing. But the both of them are also not ready or able to let people in their hearts. Of course they love people, and have people around them that love them. But it’s the love – love that they are not ready for.

And of course, it’s the pair of them, broken in a way, that find a way to each other, clashing initially, and slowly, very very very slowly, by (sometimes literally) falling and yet getting back up, that makes their heart open up to each other, and allow themselves to feel things they have been afraid of to feel again.

Seeing Molly and Christos having these evolutions, was wonderful to read. Not only when they are together, but I also ‘blame’ it to the Corfu – air and its magic, they find the courage to be open for changes, for taking a leap of faith, to be just courageous in general once again.

The funny moments, hilarious moments for sure made me laugh, whether the characters turned them funny intentional or not.

There are also a few twists and turns in this book. And secrets are being revealed. Not all the secrets did come as a complete surprise, yet there were some moments, especially with one big reveal, that I was afraid for both Molly and Christos, that their growth would have been in vain…

I have to admit, it was a slow – paced story, perhaps a bit too slow – paced for me. And I don’t mean that I didn’t like the story, because I did. Buit that is the impatient person in me, as I want to read all the resolutions and hopefully happy end, as soon as possible. 😊

I enjoyed reading this story, about how something unexpected can change your whole life, how it can throw people on your path you normally would never meet. But this book shows us how the generosity of others can bring perhaps a much needed change in your life. How it allows you to step outside your comfort zone, to be courageous. And all this in an amazing Greek setting!

‘Five Things I Love About You’ – written by Clare Swatman #BookReview @clareswatman @rararesources @BoldwoodBooks

Can dream bring you the man of our dreams?

Synopsis

Forty-nine-year-old Miranda is at a crossroads.

Her children have left home, her perfectly civilised divorce is more than a decade behind her and her romances since have been lacklustre, and her career has stalled. The bright spots in her life are best friends Sophie and Kirstie, but it’s clear something has to change.

So, when she’s knocked off her bike and wakes up in hospital bruised but not broken, Miranda wonders if the universe is trying to tell her something. And when she starts to be plagued by recurring dreams featuring the same featureless man, Sophie insists it’s a sign.

Her repeating dreams offer five clues to the man’s identity so, with nothing to lose, Miranda sets off on a journey to the future she’s always longed for. Somewhere there’s a life and a love waiting for Miranda, but will she grasp it with both hands or will she let her destiny slip through her fingers even when it’s right in front of her…

An uplifting, magical story about fresh starts, best friends and soulmates. Perfect for all fans of Lucy Diamond, Beth Moran and Jill Mansell.

My review

Miranda cannot say that she is unhappy. But she also cannot say that she is living her life at the fullest. The most that she can say, is that her life is a bit boring and predictable. Her children are all grown and away, her ex – husband is still a good friend of hers but has his own family to look after. And she loves her job as a teacher, but she also knows that when there are costs to be made, it’s last in, first out. And unfortunately, she is often the last one in… After an accident, Miranda wakes up in the hospital, and realizes that she needs to take matter in own hands, and make a change. And then the dreams start… dreams where she is happily in love with a man with a Geordie accent, with a dog named Colin, but a man without a face… Her dreams have given her 5 clues, clues that make her determined to find the man of her dreams. No matter how crazy it may seem, Miranda heads off to Newcastle, in the hope to not only find the mysterious man, but also to find the inspiration and drive for a new and fresh start…

People that really know me, know that I have the strangest dreams ever. Dreaming about getting married to strangers, being pregnant, even chased by dinos, been there, done that. And while some dreams I wish they would could through (hello, all the hotties I married in them! 😊) there are more moments I am happy that dreams are just that, just dreams.

So when I started reading this book, I knew that Miranda would chase her dreams. And even if that sounded a bit crazy, I kept an open mind, because I know this author, and I had faith in her and her amazing writing skills.

And I was right, because I truly liked Miranda, and I could easily understand the turmoil she is in. She doesn’t really have any reason to complain about in her life, but things for sure could also be a lot easier. And I could understand that she feels that something is missing in her life. She doesn’t need a man in her life, especially as she just discovered that her boyfriend has been cheating on her, but there is something to say about having someone in your life. And yes, she has lovely, crazy friends, but don’t we all need sometimes someone just more?

The accident that makes her end up in the hospital is the start of her wake – up call. Because it’s there she hears the voice with the Geordie – accent for the first time. A Voice with that same accent that suddenly starts to appear in her dreams.

Initially I thought it made sense that right after the accident, she would be dreaming about the man with that voice. But reading as how even after months the dreams keep on coming, well, I was intrigued! 😊

I admired Miranda’s determination to follow her dreams (literally) and her hope to find not only the man of her dreams, but perhaps also a purpose in life. And I liked how her best friends supported her, even if they have their own doubts. That shows how deeply they care about each other, supporting each other in the crazy ideas too.

I don’t know if I would ever do what Miranda is doing in this book, as there are several moments that I for sure would have just walked away, turned around and be very very wary of the people Miranda is meeting. But that is the beauty of books, isn’t it, it can let you see what would happen…

Now, I am not going to spoil a lot in this book, by saying who Miranda meets in Newcastle, and how those meetings affect her, one way or another. But I was pleasantly surprised to see Miranda out of her comfort zone, doing things she would never imagine, and just making new friends.

There are also a few moments I wanted to shout at Miranda though, as she wasn’t making the choices I wanted her to make. But in a way, that also shows us that it isn’t always easy to understand what it is that we truly want and need… Life doesn’t always come with a manual, and life is made by trail and error. It is what we learn from our errors, and how we grow from them.

Clare Swatman wrote once again a heart – warming story, about being courageous in life, even doing something crazy once in a while. But also about friends supporting you even through the craziest ideas. And it was just a great story reading how the man of your dreams may or may not be found in… your dreams.

‘The Cornish Witch’ – written by Elena Collins #BookReview @JudyLeighWriter @rararesources @BoldwoodBooks

If witches would be real, can they still haunt an entire village in the present?

Synopsis

Now: When Megan’s father gets a letter containing a secret from the past, he asks her to go to the Cornish village of St Mawgen Cove to get to the bottom of the mystery. Megan is happy to take a holiday after a challenging year but as soon as she checks into The Ship Inn something feels amiss. There are noises in the room above, the locals tell tales of smugglers and shipwrecks and she can’t escape the story of the witch who waits and watches, weeping on the top of the cliff.

1625: Susanna and her daughter Katel live a contented life, but without the protection of a husband and father, Susanna fears for Katel’s future as she blossoms into womanhood. The fishing community of St Mawgen Cove is close knit but when misfortune arrives in the cove, it’s not long before villagers are looking for someone to blame. And when talk turns to witches, Susanna knows she and Katel are no longer safe.

Can Megan bring peace to St Mawgen and to two women who have been broken-hearted for centuries?

My review

To help out her father after receiving an unexpected letter, Megan heads off to the Cornish village of St Mawgen Cove. And obviously it is nice that she can finally take a much needed holiday. The last things Megan expected, is that after checking in at the The Ship Inn, stories of the place being haunted are being told and believed in. Some rooms of the Inn even have inexplicable noises, that chase the guests away… All that is related to the tails of witches, shipwrecks and smugglers. Megan is especially intrigued by the story of Susanna and her daughter Katel, who in 1625 were living peacefully in St Mawgen Cove, even if Susanna had Katel out of wedlock and never married. And like a real good mother, Susanna worries about Katel, who is growing up to become a young woman. But with Katel befriending the wrong kind of person, and misfortune taking place in St Mawgen Cove, soon whispers and reasons for it start to arise. And when there is even talks about witchcraft, Susanna and Katel start to feel unsafe in a place that always felt like home to them…

I wouldn’t say that I believe in witchcraft, just like I wouldn’t say that I believe in ghosts or spirits. But I am not saying that they aren’t real, but for me to believe it, I need to see it with my own eyes, even if I rather not. In doubt, don’t tempt them 😊.

Of course there has been a time that people generally speaking, believed in witchcraft, especially the bad kind of witchcraft. And we all know that many women have been wrongfully accused of being a witch and even persecuted and murdered for just gossip and mean talks…

When I started to read this book, I was wondering how the author would link the story of Megan with the story of Susanna. Of course, with Megan going to St Mawgen Cove for a holiday/ favour to her father, it was rather easy to make the connection. But even if Megan is staying at The Ship Inn, it is not just a matter of making that common thread work between the both main characters.

But I loved it reading how Megan heads off to St Mawgen cove, and how her story is getting linked with Susanna’s story.

Right from the start, I liked Megan, even if we don’t share the same beliefs. I do believe that there are herbs that can help with certain ailments, but I don’t believe in crystals, the power of stones etc. But of course, everyone is free to believe what they want. And what harm can it do?

But the reason I liked Megan, is for her open mind, her kind character, her ability to read people. When she discovers what her father has been keeping a secret, it would be normal to get angry, furious even. But not Megan, she listens to her father, understands his fears and doubts, and is even willing to test the waters. She also shows a healthy dose of curiosity but also a lot of common sense.

It’s clear that she is passionate about her job, but she also clearly needs a break, away from business. Of course you can take Megan away from her job, but you can never take out the passion for the crystals and herbs out of Megan. Even when she should be relaxing, and not having a care in the world (with the exception of helping her father), she cannot just stop listening to people and offer some kind of help and advice, however she can.

While staying at the Inn, she quickly learns about the myths, and she is even the witness of a few peculiar incidents. Incidents that gave me goosebumps, as I am 100% sure that I would be running away screaming if I were in Megan’s shoes. But that is also testimony of Megan’s character, that even if she is a bit scared, she won’t let the incidents chase her away. On the contrary, she wants to discover what happened centuries ago…

Centuries ago that bring us to the world of Susanna and Katel.

Susanna is a strong woman, an independent woman, in a time it isn’t expected from women to stand on their own feet. She is a smart woman too, she has a lot of knowledge to help people. In that aspect, she looks a lot like Megan.

She is a strong woman, as she is a mother, but no man in her life. That doesn’t mean that she hasn’t loved before, otherwise Katel wouldn’t have been born, right? 😊 But Susanna is also a woman with a conscience, who does the right thing, she doesn’t cross any line, no matter what.

Susanna is also a loving mother to Katel, who honestly isn’t always the easiest of daughters. Perhaps it’s because of Katel’s age, that she is easily influenced, or other reasons, but Katel in this story takes a few turns, that worried me. Her friendships aren’t always the wisest ones.

And I could understand Susanna’s worries… because as a mother, you always want to protect your  children. And Susanna for sure wants to protect Katel from evil, not only evil friendships, but also evil gossips.

Of course we know that things won’t end well, but it is until the very last that we are able to discover who the haunted ghosts are, what the reason is for them not to have peace, and why some of them are seeking revenge.

I found this an intriguing story, absolutely, as I needed to have the answers to all my questions. But it was also a heartwarming yet also heartbreaking story. Because we see so much love in it, but also how painful that love can be. How much joy love can bring, no matter which kind of love that is, but also how it can drive people to extremities…

Even if there were aspects in this book that I don’t (want to) believe, I found myself having the need, the urgence to keep reading the stories of Megan and Susanna, two women in different times, but so alike in many ways. Women that are strong, smart and loving, but have endured pain in their lives too. Women that love unconditionally and protect their loved ones at any cost, even if that may or may not be at their own stake…

‘Jacob’ – written by VH Nicolson #BookReview @vhnicolson @rararesources @BoldwoodBooks

The ex of a friend is always off – limits, but what if…

Synopsis

Resisting temptation will test me to my limits

I’ve been in love with Skye since we were kids. But she’s off-limits, not just because I’m her boss, but she’s my best friend’s ex. And, together we made a pact as teenagers. And unbreakable bro code. Never Touch each other’s ex. Ever.

But I’m forced to spend hour after hour, day after day, with her beauty. In meetings, conference calls, emails, business trips. Every. Single. Week. It’s hideously torturous, and I shouldn’t want her the way I do. But then I think she might feel the same way…

Jacob is my boss. He’s broad, toned, dripping in ink and it turns out the man I’m falling for has been under my nose this entire time and yet I can’t have him. It’s too complicated and he won’t betray his best friend and my ex.

So we resist. Although it’s amazing how much naughtiness you can get up to without touching. But then it becomes clear this is more than just lust. This might be real. How can we ever make this work? I wanted a fairy tale, but right now I’d settle for a chance to at least kiss my prince.

My review

Jacob has always been in love with Skye, from the moment they met when they were just kids. But then Skye started dating Owen, Jacob’s best friend. And even now, that Skye is Owen’s ex, Jacob still sees her as off – limits. Not just because he is Skye’s boss, but because Jacob and his friends have a bro code. A bro code Jacob is not willing to break, not even for the love of his life. However, spending so much time together, it becomes more and more difficult to resist temptation. And Skye one evening sees Jacob in a complete different light, making her understand what she has been missing out. However, taking things further, or just starting things, is not done. But for how long is it possible to resist that attraction?

Having read the first book of this series, as a first encounter with this author, I was eager to read more about the friends with a bro pact.

I have to say, while initially I liked the thought of Skye being with Owen for so long, was in a way admirable (because how many high school sweethearts last that long?), I quickly realized that their relationship wasn’t at all a heartwarming one. To be totally honest, I didn’t like Owen at all. How can he be such an a**hole boyfriend?

So yes, I wasn’t all too sad to see the end of that relationship, because in my eyes, it wasn’t a relationship at all. Of course, I was sad for Skye, because she doesn’t deserve to be treated like that, but there are plenty of fish in the sea, aren’t they? And the perfect fish for her may be in a closer sea than she could imagine…

The first encounter we as a reader have with Jacob in this book, wasn’t exactly what I was expecting. It wasn’t him in the office, at night, with someone else on his desk, and Skye finding them in that situation. And I for sure didn’t expect that Skye herself would act in that specific way. luckily I wasn’t eating or drinking in that moment, otherwise, I would spill it all!

And yes, Jacob is too hot to handle, I could imagine him perfectly, and I know that if he were are a real person, I couldn’t resist him. But Jacob is so much more than a handsome, hot and fierce man. Because after that heated night, Skye discovers that Jacob knows her like no one else. He not only truly listens to her. He wants to give the woman that stole his heart years ago, everything she could dream of.

In a way, Jacob is a martyr. Not only did he see one of his best friends run off with the woman he loves, but he also had to be the secret boyfriend in a way, buying the right gifts, being there for Skye when she needs in fact Owen… It breaks his heart to see Skye with Owen, but he cannot imagine a life without her in it.

Jacob is the guy that would sacrifice his own happiness for the person he loves. And discovering this in the book, made me fall in love with Jacob too.

And with Skye now being single, she finally has the chance to see Jacob for the man he truly is. And reading how Skye realizes what Jacob has already done for her and is still doing, made me almost scream at her: Jump him already! 😊

Yet that is perhaps something I didn’t expect in this book, as yes, there are plenty of heated moments in it. But with Jacob not wanting to betray his best friend, gave the story a complete different direction. Because both Jacob and Skye find it more and more difficult to resist the attraction, but it’s a matter of keeping his word and doing the right thing that keeps Jacob from going further with Skye.

And that is something admirable, because not everyone would do the right thing. Jacob being himself was a bit frustrating as a reader, because I was ready for the “action”, but on the other hand, if Jacob wasn’t the Jacob he is now, I don’t know if I would love him this much.

Skye’s and Jacob’s story is also a matter of seeing behind what we always thought to see. Because ever since Skye realizes Jacob’s feelings, she sees what has always been in front of her, yet she managed to fail to see all the hints.

There is also an incident that made me gasp. I did not see that twist coming, I was fearing for the worst, as I don’t wish anyone to live through what Skye has to endure. Yet also here we see that Jacob goes lengths for his loved ones…

I devoured this book, as I even liked it even more than Lincoln’s story, that I already loved. We see how a love can start at a young age, how it can be unrequited for so long. Yet once the shades fall off, and it’s all in the open, it is just the start of something wonderful. But there is also a lot of respect and loyalty towards the people that have been there for you.

As I have been rather mean towards Owen in this review, I am very curious what journey the author will let him take. Because there is no way that both Lincoln and Jacob, that are lovely people, would be friends with such a character. And from the snippets we saw from him, it’s clear that he is a troubled young man, and I am eager to read how, when and with whom he will get his happy end…

‘Secrets Beneath A Riviera Sky’ – written by Jennifer Bohnet #BookReview @jenniewriter @rararesources @BoldwoodBooks

When closure turns out to be the start of something new…

Synopsis

As one door closes, another one opens…

When Agnes Agistini receives a phone call from Theo, her brother-in-law informing her that her estranged, abusive husband Oscar has died in an accident, she feels nothing but relief. But that relief is short-lived as Oscar’s vengeance from an early grave forces Agnes to return to the place she fled from over forty years ago. A place and time she’s not keen to revisit.

At the request of a French notaires dealing with Oscar’s last will, Agnes travels to Cannes in the South of France alongside their daughter Francine and her grand-daughter Jasmine.

Agnes knows that going back will inevitably drag up deep, dark memories which she is yet to reconcile, but what choice does she have?
What she wasn’t prepared for are the family secrets that will come to light, or the cruel way in which Oscar treats her right until the bitter end.

As always Theo remains by her side, helping to navigate the myriad of bombshells Oscar leaves in his wake. But as wonderful memories begin to resurface Agnes begins to wonder if she can finally make peace with the past and find an everlasting happiness?

My review

Agnes Agistini fled years ago from France, away from her abusive and even cruel husband Oscar. Now her brother – in – law Theo is calling her to inform her that Oscar has been in an accident and has passed away. As is accustomed in France, Agnes has to return to the place that holds so many memories, and not good ones. Together with her daughter Francine and granddaughter Jasmine (or Zazz, how she likes to call herself), Agnes travels to Cannes, for the reading of the Will. But Oscar, even deceased, is playing his evil tricks again. Because what is written in his Will, will shock Agnes and her family. Luckily, Agnes can count of the everlasting help from her brother – in – law Theo, who is more than willing to stand by Agnes’s side through a turmoil that resurfaces memories, not only bad ones, but also good ones.

With the chapter of Agnes’s marriage with Oscar finally and definitively closed, despite several secrets being revealed, is it finally time for Agnes to find her happiness, just like her daughter and granddaughter?

I have read several books of this author. And each and every one of those books show us stories about the past, how it affects people, but also how life can change by one event.

And I have to say, perhaps this book is my favourite one of all I have read by Jennifer Bohnet. I am not saying that I disliked the others ones, but this one had somehow a special something, a special extra thing.

It’s not uncommon that marriages aren’t always a success story. But Agnes’s marriage is something else. And it’s not because she doesn’t love Oscar at all. But also because her own parents are just not listening to her, still forcing her to get along with the marriage, even if that is the last thing on her mind.

And yes, it is easy to say as a bystander that Agnes just should grow a pair and stand up for herself. But you also have to take in account that young Agnes didn’t grow up with all the freedom we have now. And that just a few decades ago, it was expected from children to listen to their parents and don’t question them. And that ‘disobedience’ would be paid with a complete cut off from the family.

So of course my heart went out to Agnes, as she had no other option to marry that bully of a Oscar. And it broke my heart to see how Agnes had to endure all the hurt, physical and emotional, by the hand of Oscar.

Luckily, not all the Agistini’s are terrible people, as Agnes found an ally and a friend in the form of Theo. Seeing their bond, their friendship, and their love, truly warmed my heart. Theo shows both in the past and in the present, that even in one family, people can be so different from each other. Where Oscar is a brute, a bully, Theo is the kindest, warmest, most generous person possible.

Everything I have said until now, is about Agnes in the past. In the present, Agnes is free to live her life how she wants. She managed to get away from Oscar, and built a new life, together with her daughter Francine and granddaughter Zazz.

I know that rules are rules, and that Agnes, Francine and Zazz have to go to Cannes for the reading of the Will. But it is also crystal-clear that Agnes and her family are gong to be surprised/ shocked once again by Oscar.

Despite Oscar’s last nasty tricks, I found the strength all three women are showing in this book admirable.

There is obviously Agnes, who is able to definitely get rid of the scars of her husband. She is able to finally close that chapter, not carrying around the burden of Oscar anymore.

Then there is Francine, who also isn’t the saddest over the loss of her father, as she also endured Oscar’s behaviour. But it’s obvious that the girl who grew up in France for a while, grew up to become an adult that has lost her spontaneity and perhaps even has become a little bit of an overbearing mother to Zazz.

And then there is Zazz, a young woman, with a bright future laying ahead of her. She just needs to find her path, or to say more correctly, she has chosen a path that she now has to follow. She is a woman not afraid of challenges, but she is also the kind of person that does not just simply follow the mainstream, but she makes up her own mind.

There are several secrets being revealed in this book. And I can say that some surprised me but I cannot say they all came as a complete shock. In fact, I was happy with some of those secrets coming out, as the truth was a more satisfying one.

I found this book inspirational in a way. Because there are three generations of women, with their own kind of wisdoms and experience, but also their own desire and hopes for the future. Each of them has an own path to follow, a journey to grow, a journey to accept the past, to live with consequences but also to forgive, and to love again.

We see how even the greatest bully cannot break people, no matter how hard they try. And we see how hope and love are the last things to die. We see how life and love always find a way, perhaps not through the journey we expected to endure. But the hurdles we need to take to get there, only makes us stronger and makes us appreciate all the sacrifices we had to make and pains we had to endure to get the happiness and love we truly deserve.