When running away is no longer an option…
Synopsis
Melanie knows she’s been running away…
For the last seven years Mel has been hiding; from life, from her friends and from those who love her the most – her family. But being at home in her beloved Lake District has been far too painful for Mel to contemplate. Because seven years ago, Mel lost everything and she’s never been able to banish the dark clouds that follow her.
But maybe there really is no place like home?
When Mel returns to Willowdale for a family event, she has no intention of staying. But surrounded by her family she begins to realise just how much she’s been missing and also, how much healing she still needs to do.
Starting a dream job at Willowdale Hall, going on walks with Emma and her funny alpacas and reconnecting with those she loves, Mel slowly begins to see chinks of light and a more hopeful and happier future ahead.
And as Mel begins to feel stronger, she also feels brave enough to face the most painful part of leaving home…the one man she has always loved. With his help, can she finally banish the dark clouds forever and see the sunshine after the rain?
My review
Seven years ago, Mel’s perfect life fell totally apart. As she couldn’t cope with living at the Lake district, she made the move to not only run away from her pain, but also to hide from everyone and everything. She has never returned to Willowdale, as it was just too painful. But the latest family event is just too impossible to let pass by. So Mel returns to the place that once used to be her home, but with the resolution to make it back to Newcastle – upon – Tyne as soon as possible. However, Mel realizes how much she has been missing out in the seven years away. With scoring the job of her dreams at Willowdale Hall, could this be Mel’s chance to heal her broken heart and see colour back in her life? Or are some wounds too deep to be healed?
My dearest Jessica,
Yes, I am writing this review letter – wise, because I think you need to understand what this book did to me.
Before you start panicking, yes, tears were shed, but I was able to contain myself a little bit. For the darkest moments, I took a breath, counted to ten, and found the courage to read on without falling short on tissues.
How can you each time such lovely characters to life, even if they have been or are still going through heel? Because you made my heart break for Mel, even if you kept it long time a secret what happened to her. But it obvious that something terrible happened to her, and while running away isn’t the answer or the solution, it is something Mel needed to do all those years ago.
You know, Jessica, it truly saddened me to read how Mel for seven years has tried to move on, but in fact failed at it. She tried to have a new start, but in fact she ahs been standing still for seven years. She never made her flat a home, even her relationship wasn’t a real relationship. And her reluctance to return to Willowdale may have been understandable, but for us readers, it is also clear that returning home is what she needs to do, to face her demons, to come to terms what happened.
Obviously returning to Willowdale, which isn’t ‘home’ yet for Mel, isn’t an easy task for Mel, as there is a lot unfinished business and lots of heartbreak for her. It broke my heart a little bit more to read how difficult Mel is finding it to adapt to be back in Willowdale. Not only there is a bit of a strained relationship with her lovely parents, but it is still difficult for her to completely open up, and to face those awful demons. And coming face to face with the person that knows what she has felt and is still feeling, is just too heartful for her.
I loved what you did there Jessica, with Mel. Because at the start of the story, Mel’s life is rather dark. And Mel shows her darkness by her clothes. Initially her clothes are dark, black, brown, and just not alive. And as we see Mel coming back alive, there is also a slow return of colours. And not only in her clothes, but in her life in general.
Of course, retuning to Willowdale and everything going smoothly from the first moment, that is just impossible. Nobody gets over a heartbreak that easily, even if already seven years have passed since that moment. And a pain that has been held for so long, it cannot be released in an instant. And Jessica, you showed us perfectly how it’s a process filled with many ups and downs. Sometimes it’s one step forward, two steps back.
While it was great to see those steps forward, those steps back made me almost feel a physical pain. And there is one event that made me fear that Mel would fall back into a downward spiral. But the contrary happened, as she is the best person to understand what is needed, how to comfort and how to help in the best way. And I believe that the Mel at the start of the book wouldn’t be able to be that rock she is when this takes place.
Those steps forward that Mel is having, are obviously partly made possible by all the people Mel meets in Willowdale. Jessica, you have written wonderful stories before, and I was delighted how you manage each time to make some characters return, adding extra to the story, but without ever taking the spotlight. The returning characters complement the story, showing once again how wonderful people can be!
I have to admit one thing though, my dearest Jessica… I thought that there would be more romance in the book. But the more the book progressed, the more I realized that this wasn’t that kind of love story. This book is purely Mel’s story, and her attempt to find colour back in her life. She needs to find love again, but not in a romantic way. She needs to find love for herself again, she needs to find and accept love around her again.
And how can you love someone else if you cannot love yourself? How can you move on if there is so much guilt you are carrying around? How can you think about the present and the future, if the past still has so many questions for you?
You just keep on amazing me, Jessica. Once again you wrote a marvellous story, a captivating story. A story about a broken main character, on her journey to healing. A journey that isn’t easy, not in fiction and not in reality. Life isn’t a walk in the park, and terrible, heartbreaking things can happen to anyone, unexpectedly. And there is no guidebook to get you over grief, pain and guilt. But with one step at the time, there is the right place and time to get colour back in your life…





























