How to recover from heartbreak?
Synopsis
What if everything you ever wished for turned out to be the loneliest place of all?
Helena Beale is desperately lonely. Still grieving her parents, stuck in the city, and watching everyone around her move on with their lives, she begins to fear that love has passed her by.
So when a psychic predicts a dazzling future – a devoted man, a beautiful home, and a child to call her own – Helena clings to the vision like a lifeline.
And then, impossibly, it comes true. Helena finds herself in the countryside with a charismatic partner, a little boy she adores, and the picture-perfect life she was promised. From the outside, she has everything she ever wanted. But inside the relationship, something is very wrong…
As cracks begin to show, Helena must confront a devastating truth: getting what you wished for isn’t the same as being truly loved. Can she gather enough courage to break free, and choose herself when everything is telling her not to? This emotional romance is perfect for readers of Beth Moran, Paige Toon, Dani Atkins and Laura Pearson.
My review
After also losing her mother, Helena Beale is feeling the loneliest person in the world. With everyone around her moving forward, Helena believes that love isn’t in the cards for her. Until a psychic predicts that her future involves a man and a child with curly hair. Years later, Helena finds herself having moved to the countryside with her partner Noah and his son Raffy. Life couldn’t be any better and Helena never thought that she could love so deeply. However, one day Noah makes a choice that devastates Helena and turns her whole world upside down. Can Helena be strong enough to heal from the heartbreak and experience that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger?
I am always very wary both in real life and while I am reading, and there is a psychic, or gypsies who claim to predict the future. I don’t believe it and I always take it with an inch of salt what they claim to know.
And when in this story, broken Helena has a conversation with a psychic who seems to know and sense a lot about her life, even then I was wary. I was almost telling Helena to not fall for those tricks, as it could not be possible true.
So yes, I was a bit surprised when several years later, Helena seems to have found exactly what the psychic predicted. And I was happy for her, but I also knew that her whole world would be falling apart, somehow.
I need to say, that while on paper (pun intended), Noah seems the perfect match for Helena, the more we see his actions (past and present), the more red flags arouse. And in a way, I was satisfied that my gut feeling about this character seemed to be right.
Because it may seem that Helena the past years has been happy with Noah and Raffy. However, even before Noah breaks Helena’s heart, there are signs that in fact, Helena is bending over backwards to please Noah. It has gone even that far that Helena since their move, hasn’t made any new friends and that even Raffy isn’t going on any playdates.
And that truly angered me, because a relationship is about compromising. You cannot agree on every aspect in life, but in a normal relationship, both partners give and take. And it is clear that Noah only takes, never gives. Not even for Raffy and his wellbeing.
I just cannot understand how Noah can act this way, being to selfish, controlling. Not only is it his way or no way, but his reactions when being contradicted are just so wrong. And what I also couldn’t understand, is how Helena is just going along with Noah’s erratic behaviour.
Of course, as an outsider, it is always easier to say what someone should do in this kind of situations. But is also a fact that finding yourself in an unhealthy relationship doesn’t just happen overnight. It is bit by bit that changes are taking place, and before you know, you have also changed so much that you are just a shadow of your former self.
So while I absolutely despise Noah and his actions, especially the way how he just leaves Helena behind, I was somehow happy. Obviously, Helena finds herself in so many difficulties that first of all could be avoided would Noah just have been honest, and secondly, no one should ever find themselves into.
On the other hand, beside all the struggles and the heartbreak Helena is going through, I also saw this as an opportunity for her. An opportunity to not only do as she ‘pleases’, but also and much more important, to find herself again.
And while the struggle is real, and Helena doesn’t get everything fixed right away, I loved seeing her work in progress.
We see how in fact, Helena is a real caring person. That shouldn’t truly surprise us, seeing how much she loves Raffy as her own son. But we see that even as a neighbour she goes beyond just politeness to help out Margery. It truly warmed my heart to see how that relationship evolves into a real friendship. The same can be said of Nathalie. Helena and Nathalie couldn’t be more different, but difference can make the strongest friendships!
And the best bit of the whole book, is seeing Helena grow into a strong, independent woman. After the initial struggles, she knows what she wants to do with her life, and with the help of her new friends, she just gets going. Seeing the new Helena, in a way even the old – pre – Noah Helena again, shows not only resilience, but strength, courage and determination.
Obviously, it didn’t come as a surprise to me, that just the moment where everything falls into perfect place for Helena, a certain person that we all dislike, reappears. It didn’t come as a surprise, but his audacity for sure did! And while I wanted to scream at Helena not to fall into his trap, I could also understand her, as Raffy is still a big part of the equation…
And here, we see how much Helena has grown throughout the story. Because, without giving the endgame away, we see how she is not the meek Helena any longer while standing in front of Noah. She isn’t afraid of speaking out, confronting Noah and just stand tall against him. But we also see that as a real mother, her feelings towards Raffy haven’t changed at all.
In this story, there may or may not be a love interest for Helena. But whether it is a match or not, the romance isn’t the red line. By far!
Because while it is heartbreaking to read what Helena has been through in the past, and is going through now, it is also a very inspiring story. We see with Helena, that no matter how deep you fall, step by step you are able to stand up again. Not only stand up, but stand up tall and proud again. You can find yourself again, you can find new and important people in your life.
While it is not always an easy story to read, I found myself absolutely devouring this book. It shows us the ugliness of people, yes, but mainly the beauty of people, the strength of people and how even the most devastating heartbreak can be a learning point and change your life for the better, somehow.




























