When dreams finally come through, though not as expected…
Synopsis
When dancer Nell Avery auditions for Speakeasy, a new West End musical, she is shocked to discover that the choreographer is Finn Harris, a man she never expected to see again.
Ten years ago, Nell and Finn had a casual, no-strings fling. He left London to work abroad. Nell found herself pregnant.
Having made the decision to raise her child alone, Nell didn’t tell Finn that he was the father, a secret easy for her to keep while he was hundreds of miles away. But now Finn is back – and he offers Nell a role in Speakeasy’s cast.
Nell knows if she takes the job she risks Finn finding out her secret, with unimaginable consequences for the life she has made for herself and her daughter, Savannah. But Speakeasy could be Nell’s only chance of dancing on a West End stage – the dream she’s had ever since she first put on a pair of tap shoes. How can she give up her dream?
My review
Nell Harris is a professional dancer whose biggest dream has always been of being part of a big West End musical. So obviously she is over the moon when she can audition for Speakeasy, the brand new musical that has high expectations. However, she is shocked to learn that the choreographer is no one else than Finn Harris. Finn has a great reputation but it’s not that she is afraid of the hard work, but it’s because Nell and Finn have a history. Ten years ago, they were great friends, and had one special night together, just before Finn left London to work abroad. The last thing Nell expected was to be expecting. As she took the decision to not tell Finn, now she is afraid that her secret will come out as it appears that they will be spending a lot of time together, as Nell has secured a spot in his musical. With her dream finally coming through, can she risk that the life she has built with her daughter Savannah could be falling apart with Finn finding out the truth? Especially as her resolution to stay away from Finn is easier said than done…
I am not a dancer myself, but I absolutely enjoy watching musicals, or just dance shows in general. So of course I had to read this story, about a dancer seeing finally her big dream coming true!
What I absolutely loved about Nell, was how even if she is seen as an ‘older’ dancer, she keeps on giving her all, going to auditions, trying to secure a spot in each new show. She has had several rejections too, but she just doesn’t give up. And that for sure is admirable!
Her energy during the auditions is so palpable, she is a fierce dancer. But she is also a kind person in a world where jealousy and self – importance are not unknown. While it would be easy to just think about herself, Nell doesn’t hesitate to help out her fellow dancers in time of need, worry and doubts. In a way, it felt that Nell took the job of motherhood to the dancefloor.
Talking about motherhood… Being a single mother is not easy, yet I liked it how Nell has a whole team of family and friends to help her raising Savannah. Yet it’s clear that Nell is doing an amazing job and it’s a testament to Nell that Savannah is such a delightful girl.
I don’t agree with the choice Nell made ten years ago, not telling Finn about the pregnancy. And even now, that he is back in her life, no matter how temporarily it may be, she is not telling the truth. I don’t agree with her, but in a way I could understand her too. She didn’t want to ruin Finn’s life back then, and now she doesn’t want to ruin Savannah’s life. Understandable in both situations, but still not the right decisions in my eyes…
But that makes Nell a more real person, with flaws even if it’s all done with the best of intentions.
And of course it was funny to see her shocked reaction when she realizes that Finn is back in her life 😊.
Seeing Finn in action, at least in my mind, was truly eye-opening. We get to see how the ideas in his mind come to fruition with the dancers and an amazing dance is executed.
Finn is not an easy teacher, he demands perfection from his dancers, but when the stakes are so high, it’s normal to demand the best from his dancers. But he is also a really nice guy. He is genuinely happy to see Nell again and wants to rekindle that old friendship again.
But he is also a correct person. Even if he is happy to see Nell again and feelings are slowly growing, he doesn’t give her any special treatment or any heads ups. On the work floor, or rather the dance floor, there is only room for professionalism.
Professionalism everywhere, but when Finn and Nell are on their own, sparks for sure fly around! With them, we see not only how old feelings are easily reignited with the right people, but also how dance can bring people (back) together.
Of course I was also curious to read how Nell’s secret would come out and what the reaction would be. And while it was expected for Finn to react the way he did, it also saddened me, as I just wanted Nell, Finn and Savannah to be a happy family as soon as possible, because they deserve to be a happy unit.
Obviously I loved reading the story between Nell and Finn, and their ups and downs. But I also loved reading more of the dance world. How there is rivalry, jealousy and even some not so nice behaviour, but most important, how there is friendship, care, kindness, and sincerity between the genuine dancers. But also the traditions of the musical world, the respect there is not only for the play, but also for the place itself. And I even liked how there is some kind of serendipity, how things fall into place and also how in a way, especially for Nell, it’s a full – circle – moment.
I cannot name one thing I didn’t like about this book, even if of course there are a few not so likeable characters in it. But they also make this story a beautiful story, an inspiring story that I just had to devour.




























