Not all that shines is gold…
Synopsis
Everyone thinks Ivy Macomb’s life is perfect as she’s a teen actress on a TV show, part of a well-known family, and has just started college with her football star boyfriend, Ryan. However, as Ryan’s on campus fame grows, the two break up leaving Ivy heartbroken. She makes up a cover story to save face about how they’re taking time apart, but she’s devastated and unsure how to handle things. She ends up having a crying meltdown in front of her great-uncle who is better known in the media as the most ruthless man in business. However, she learns there’s another side to Uncle Alfred as he not only offers advice, but helps her with her podcast.
Her cousin tries to get her to go out and show people she’s doing fine after the breakup. Enter freshman hockey player, Konrad Gorski. Ivy and Konrad become fast friends as he’s a shoulder to cry on for her as she deals with her feelings. He’s also been through a bad breakup and has trust issues. Konrad is selected to go overseas for a hockey opportunity and the two stay in touch daily. They begin to have feelings for each other, but she’s worried about getting hurt. Can Ivy open her heart to love again?
My review
On the outside, Ivy Macomb’s seems perfect. Not only is her family known by everyone, she also is a teen actress in a famous TV show. But what nobody outside her inner circle see, is how heartbroken Ivy is after the end of her relationship with football star Ryan. On the outside it seems that they are just taking time apart, but for Ivy it means a time with insecurities not only about herself. However, she finds help in the unexpected form of her great – uncle Alfred. And with her friends supporting her in every possible way, Ivy hopes that she can quickly find her own silver lining again. And when she slowly becomes friends with hockey player Konrad Gorski, she learns that not only is he a shoulder Ivy can cry on, but also that he is one of the few that understand her better than anyone else. However, when things start to evolve between them, can Ivy get over her fear of getting hurt again?
When do you notice that you are getting older? The moment you are reading young adult books and you find yourself giving mature advice to the main characters 😊.
We all know how it feels to have your heart broken, especially when we were younger. It may seem like the end of the world, but after some time has passed, we also realize that perhaps the end of a relationship is the best thing that could happen to us. But when you aren’t there yet, it hurts terribly.
And Ivy is still in this painful situation, where it still hurts thinking about the love she has lost. IT doesn’t help that firstly, Ryan is being seen everywhere with another young woman, but also how he keeps on contacting Ivy, claiming to still have those feelings for her. Of course the poor “child” is confused!
Not only do we see that she is trying to overcome the heartbreak, but being in the spotlight also means that everyone has an opinion over you, and it isn’t always a positive one. We see how those negative comments are affecting Ivy. She isn’t already a confident woman, and seeing and hearing people talking about her, only increase her self-doubt. And the fact that people think that being a public person means you should deal with it all, is just pure b*ll*sh*t! I truly believe that even if you dislike a person, that doesn’t give you a free pass to talk badly about them, especially so publicly.
Seeing Ivy struggle with everything all at once, truly made me feel for her. On the other hand, it also warmed my heart to read how many people are supporting her, are just there for her. Even people from her own family that she wouldn’t expect to be so helpful and impactful to make her able to overcome it all.
We see with all the support she gets, even from her Uncle Alfred, how important that is, to have people on your side. How their advice can not only give you perspective, but also and mainly how they can help you with your self-confidence.
Of course you don’t just make the click in your head, and how fear can still be holding you back. We see this especially when the new friendship with Konrad evolves.
I wouldn’t have expected it from someone like Konrad, to just ‘get’ and understand the struggles Ivy is having. But he does, and he is so ever patient with her, giving her the space when she needs it, but also being near to her when she truly needs it (even if she hasn’t spoken it out loud).
Seeing that friendship (initially) develop was just so sweet. Because it shows us that you can find the person you need and gets you, in the most unexpected person. And that not everyone ticks all the boxes of clichés.
Now, I was raised as a catholic myself, but in my personal case, I never found nor needed the comfort that religion can give you. But I was happy while reading this book, that not just one character, but several did find that in their religion. Even if I am more distant, I could understand how believing and relying on higher powers can give you the comfort you need, and can release the turmoil you are feeling. So for me personally, it shows how comforting it can be, in your time of need.
Even as a real adult (😊) I enjoyed reading this book, as obviously it shows the struggles you can face while getting into adulthood. But reading how you can find comfort and help with the people around, even from people who you least expected it, shows you that no matter how alone and insecure you may feel, you are not.
It also shows you that it is normal to be scared of opening your heart again, but that some people are for sure worth the risk. And it doesn’t matter how young or old you are, the emotions in this book are applicable to all of us, as we have all been there, or are still there, or will be there.




























